8 days ago I got the phone call from my mom that I have dreaded for the last couple of years...
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I miss her so so much already. I wish I could have hugged her one more time.....I wish our last conversation would have lasted longer....I wish I had asked her to teach me to sew.....I wish I had asked her advise on more things, I wish I knew her secret for being nice to absolutely EVERYONE....for having a smile on her face ALL the time...
I also know that I can't dwell on the "I wish I had" and the "what if's".....mostly because she wouldn't want me to....
Some days it's harder than others..........
I pulled a doll out of my closet the day after she passed...she made it for me at least 20 years ago.....I've slept with that doll every night since....Jacob likes her (well, mostly he tries to eat her....but I take it that he likes her) : )
I miss her.......
I am so thankful that she was able to meet Jacob and that she was able to feed him (something she didn't think she'd be able to do because of her arthritis) and that she got to sing him her "peep bo peep" song.
I hope I can continue to learn from her example and someday become at least half the woman she was.
I love you Grandma Glo! xoxox
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I feel your pain Amy. It's been 16 mo since I lost my dear sweet Papa. I still look at his pictures and think it's not possible that he is really gone. And like you, I dread the day I will lose my Grama. Don't dwell upon 'if only I' or 'why didn't I' or 'what if I'. Your Grama Glo loved you just the way you are. She treasured your love and unique spirit. She delighted in the wonder of you. Just as you are learning the love of a mother through your son, so was her joy in you. Mother's and Grandmother's don't see us through critical eyes. They see us through the eyes of unconditional love.
ReplyDeleteThe loss of someone so special and dear in our life makes clearer to us that life on this earth is far shorter than we think. Our faith in the Lord and His promise of life eternal, comforts our hearts with the hope of being reunited with the one's we've lost. May your heart know this comfort. I wish you peace and joy as you reflect upon the beautiful woman your Grama Glo was. Dry your tears for her legacy has left you much to smile about.